Yesterday was an okay day, the thing was I was looking forward to spending my birthday with family since I was home, but mum doesn't finish work for a while yet and dad was just in his room most of the day :( I know it is his cave, but I thought on my birthday he would stay with us a little, especially since we were watching animal rescue and nature programmes, we love watching them together :) so it was me and my boyfriend all day pretty much, it was nice though, I was so happy he was here.
Got some nice little things, some cosmetics, earrings and embroidery threads for my cross stitch :) an easy hobby to have since you can find lots of embroidery things in charity shops!I'm pretty tired from today, I exhausted myself this morning by getting emotional and anxious about going out to see my best mate and her little girl. I had the beginnings of a panic attack in a midday bubble bath, but I calmed before it really became anything. It isn't what I am going out for, people find this so hard to understand, it is the thought of leaving the safety of four walls. I did go out though and it was nice. I knew I would feel better for it, it was totally worth seeing the two of them :D
In the living room watching dad play on the wii - basically what I wanted us to do yesterday. Don't feel too comfortable though. The phone has gone off twice, once he was playing and I wouldn't answer it so dad yelled at me because he had to pause his game and answer the phone. Then the phone rang just a couple of minutes ago and it was right next to me, I got myself to answer it and there was no noise or anyone speaking so I hung up. I mumbled saying that was scary and he told me off again :( now I feel like a baby and really rubbish. I must look like a lamb that is scared of its own shadow. To be honest, that's how I feel the majority of the time.
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| Jess the Scaredy Lamb |
Do you ever get told to just 'get over it' or 'knock it off' when you're scared or anxious?
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