It's been a while

Mood: Contemplative
Listening to: Linger by The Cranberries

Well it's been so long I couldn't remember how to get the backstage access to my own blog! Admittedly I did for a while consider deleting it at the time when I was studying to become an Early Years Teacher, however as that didn't work out I am free to be me again. Nowadays you have to monitor all your online activity as it could scupper your chances for a job and such in the future but I want to keep it as it holds a lot of memories that even I have forgotten. Much of it is very negative as this blog was more of a strategy I took to get my thoughts out rather than to be an inspiration or a role model. I'm just me.

Soo what's happened since I last posted...

Teacher Training

I managed to get onto a Postgraduate Teacher Training course that specialised in Early Years (ages 0 to 5). The course was a years long and intended for anyone with a passion for children and turn them into Early Years Teachers, a recent job title that is a result of the government trying to improve the standard of childcare professional's qualifications. I loved being with the children in my placements but, due to factors outside of my control, things became more difficult and I fell increasingly behind, getting more anxious and allowing my depression to drag me into a dark corner. I was so stressed with the pressure I was putting on myself to do well and make a good impression at my placements in the hopes of being offered a post. So I was about two thirds through the course and nowhere near where I was expected to be, Disability Support at the university was non-existent - I tried multiple times to contact them but with no response - and my tutor could see me getting overwhelmed during classes, so he suggested I take time off the course. After taking time off, I decided to take a more long term pause which allows me to stop, do something else then potentially return within a couple of years and pick up where I had left off. I don't think I will, but we'll see. It has only been four months.

Back to work

Since leaving my course I started looking for work, figuring that I just wanted to earn and build up some savings again thank you very much. I haven't had any since I spent it all on my trip to South Africa (worth every penny). So now I'm back in retail, I'm not sure how long for but I know I will move on to something I find more rewarding later in the future. For now, earn and save, earn and save...